Lots Wife

“But his wife… looked back, and she became a pillar of salt.” Genesis 19:26

One commentary states, that by looking back, Lots wife showed her longing for the way of life she was leaving behind.  It has been 9 years since I moved from my childhood home. I left a great church, a great paying job, my best friend and most importantly, my family.  This change has not been easy.  When my husband was drawing close to retirement, he kept saying he wanted to move to Florida.  It was always his dream.   My heart was wicked.  My response was “Well, I always wanted to be a dancer.  But you don’t see me leaving my job to join Julliard.”  I was angry.  I knew I had to respect his decision, but I wasn’t giving in.  Until one day I began reading this book called When Wives Walk In Grace.  That book messed me up.  It convicted me so badly that I had no choice but to utter the words, “If you want to move to Florida….”  My husband told me “Whatever it is you have been reading, keep reading it.”  I still struggled with the idea.  My heart did not want to let go.  And one day, as I thought about everything I was going to leave behind, the LORD told me “You never really put your faith in ME.”  I was a bit thrown back.  I was part of an amazing Prayer Band.  We prayed for everyone and everything imaginable – with great faith.  What could God possibly mean?  But God broke it down for me.  He told me “Your faith has been in your job because you make a lot of money.  Your faith is in your childhood home because you know that even if you lost your job, you would never be thrown out into the street.”  I realized that I was so afraid of being without, that I didn’t dare let go and have true faith to trust God.  All that time, I had been living in fear of the “what ifs” that I never walked freely in God’s blessings and couldn’t even trust my husband to lead.

God has a way of showing us things about ourselves that alone, we would never come to terms with.  And if we are not careful, we can let our fears paralyze us and blind us from the blessings God has in store for our lives.  Don’t let those “what ifs” play their song in your head any longer.  Don’t keep holding on to the familiar.  Like Lots wife, we keep looking back because our comforts seem safer than the change of the unknown.  But if you let Him, God will guide you each step of the way and take you from glory to glory!  He wants you to trust Him to use you in greater ways.  He will not let you down.  He will not fail you!

 

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.  See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?  I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”  Isaiah 43:18-19